So today I was reading "Sad Girls" by Lang Leav (great book, I totally recommend this!) One thing that stood out was Rad deleting his book completely from his laptop. After he had the horrible breakup with Audrey and after having his book rejected by a publisher, he shut down and deleted everything.
This hit me kind of hard, because I did the same with most of my blog posts after a breakup. It was strange though because I even deleted things that weren't related to him. I did it because I felt shitty to the point where I thought I was completely worthless, and everything I did had no meaning, my writing meant nothing.
So I went on to my blog and randomly decided to delete 75% of my content. I have no idea how the content that was left survived that 'apocalypse' (the stuff that I deleted was completely random, I didn't even read the titles of the posts that I was deleting), but I am glad I didn't delete everything. 25% is better than 0% right? I still regret this, I deleted my most happy experiences with him and other things throughout high school. I would give anything to go back and stop myself from doing such a dumb thing.
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