The guy in the light blue shirt

To the guy in the light blue shirt,
I am happy see that you have found God.
I have not.
Two years ago I remember when you used to get mad easily in the small church group.
Games seemed stupid to you, teacher noticed and called you out.
I remember when you abruptly left the class.
Then we went to the retreat.

On the first day you would sit eating alone
You would walk around alone looking at the floor,
not speaking to anyone.

On the second day you were eating with another person.
You were playing soccer with the other guys
You were praying.
You were singing.
You let happiness in.

Now two years later I see you still have happiness in you
The same happiness I saw at the retreat.
The same happiness that faded for me over time.
I am trying to find long lasting happiness
So far I've only found temporary happiness.