Monday came, I washed the cherries and oranges. I got a text from Rey saying she was making the sandwiches. Moments later she texted "OH MY GOD WHERE'S THE HAM!?" I texted back saying I also didn't have any ham. Rey said she forgot to buy it the day before so we agreed on not having any sandwiches. She came to my house at five to pick me up. Once we arrived to the park we set down the blanket and she took out the picnic basket. There was only one other person walking around. Instead of sandwiches she brought ice cream with cookies, and apples. She started laughing at the fact she forgot the most important part of a sandwich. Music was also playing quietly in the background. We started eating and then we talked about our childhood. She used to have an obsession with ants, she knew every fact about them. She tried recalling some but it was no use. I told her I also used to have an obsession with bats. Later I brought up something about Summer. Months ago I noticed Rey and Summer were becoming close friends then I noticed they stopped talking for no apparent reason. Rey told me it was because she is going to the same college and Summer's boyfriend is, and Rey sensed Summer was getting jealous. I talked to Summer recently, so I knew she is overprotective of her boyfriend, this story came as no surprise to me.
After this small talk Rey told me she talked to Geek dude on Friday. She said he was being selfish. He only talked about him not wanting to lose me because it would mean he was going to lose his best friend, he would lose a person to hang out with. Initially he didn't touch on the fact that he hurt me. Which made Rey mad, especially when he said "I am destroyed, I feel terrible.: she then said "You feel bad? YOU feel bad? Imagine her jesus christ you cheated on her!" At this point I felt tears whelming up because I knew he didn't care. That was the only reason why I didn't respond to what she was saying because I knew if I did I was going to start crying. She then started talking about her ex boyfriend Mar. He is a year older so when she was a senior he was a freshman in college. They tried to make things work while he was off to college. Later he said he wanted the full college experience, which meant going to parties, the drinking, and hooking up with other people. Of course Rey didn't agree with this. So they also went to the liquidity state, she was in it for months, and she was miserable. It didn't save or help the relationship at all. One day he broke up with her and she begged for him to stay, because she didn't want to lose him. As I was hearing this I couldn't help but notice all the parallels of her story and mine. This made me change my mind on being 'okay' in the liquid state. After hearing this I knew I was not going to feel better in this state, Rey didn't and we're similar people, so it was no use to waste time in this miserable feeling. After the breakup she thought so low of herself. She always thought of the 'What if's" and "Maybe if I changed this, he would like me", or the "I am not good enough for him," practically the same feelings I was experiencing. Months later she finally reached the stage where she was okay, even happy with the breakup. She realized she didn't need him in her life to be happy. She didn't need to change or to worry about her physical appearance to satisfy him, because if she did change them, nothing would be any different in the relationship. Rey started writing poetry once again, she started reading, things that she once used to do before he came along.
When we were done eating Rey took out a small pillow from her car and put it on the blanket. We both put our heads on it, and just looked at the sky as "Cigarette Daydreams" played in the background. Somehow we started talking about our elementary school bullies. We both started laughing at how pathetic they were. She also talked about the time she wanted to be the clown in a school play but she ended up being a tree. She walked up to the boy dressed as clown and yelled at him that it was Rey's rightful role. The only reason she did this was because she could have sworn she read her name as the role of the clown. Until this day she has the same stance. After a while of talking about comic book superheroes I offered to go to the swing sets. As we walked there she said "Man I haven't been in one since freshman year. I remember when I was little I never liked swing sets because I got bored easily." Once we got on we continued talking about Geek dude. At one point we both started yelling "Boys are trash!" while we swung higher and higher. Rey started laughing and said "Oh my god, I don't remember swings being this fun!" She started throwing her body back while stretching her legs outward. She told me to do it because it was fun but I was afraid due to me wearing a dress (she was also wearing a dress). She said "It don't matter gurl, do it!" and I did after so many requests. It was probably the first time I was genuinely enjoying myself since the whole cheating thing began. Rey told me how she wanted to also punch Geek dude in the face but couldn't because it wasn't going to change anything. Once she got home that day she texted Mar saying "Ugh why are you guys so dumb!" afterwards they talked about their relationship. Mar still doesn't believe he did anything wrong in the relationship. This only enraged us even more. There was talk about her also wanting to come back to him at times but then she remembers how horrible it felt, and it is honestly not worth it.
After talking, this kid Julian started talking to Rey. He is six years old, and he doesn't live around the area. They played around for a bit at the playground. Then they came back to the swing set and he told us he didn't know how to swing by himself. So Rey was pushing him and I told him to follow my body motions and after a while, he was doing it on his own! We started racing on who could swing the highest, he eventually beat me. His mom came around and told him they had to leave and he said "Leave where?" which made Rey and I laugh. They left and we soon started packing our things
This day could have easily been the best one of the week. Rey is one of the most beautiful and caring people out there. It honestly tore me apart hearing what she had to go through. Because she is the person that always makes the class laugh, or is the person that is there when someone needs advice. She has the brightest smile that can easily lift up someone's day. I thank her for this. She is the one that made wake up on what was actually happening. She made me see the harsh truth that geek dude doesn't care. Something I was so scared of believing, she helped me understand and cope with that reality. She also made me realize I am not alone in this healing process. This was the first time we bonded on this kind of level. It was a special kind of picnic because we both talked about our vulnerable points, and fears. And surprise surprise we are both Cancers! After this day at the park I've honestly felt better. Before this meeting, I was crying every night over the relationship, I put myself in the worst thoughts and feelings. Rey has shown me I am worth so much more than this. I will forever be grateful for her.
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